
My eardrums ring in the trembling air
I was Standing in that road
side by side with you
when a Flashing Light exploded
and before I realised it
you were gone.
Extra terrestrial Biological Entities – EGOIST
I need to stop looking for you.
(because)
You are not going to be there.
Under the table
Beneath the sky
Deep down the sea
You’re not going to be anywhere
Even if I scream your name
Even if I make a call to the sempiternal of this rotten world
You’re just like the dust that I couldn’t catch within the wind
A distant place out of my reach
The healed sore in my barefoot at the time I ran and ran and ran
Through planets and systems
To you
Looking for you
Utterly blinded
Utterly lost
And it’s kind of sad
And it’s fine
I always knew that
It’s like something you know from
Previous lifes
That
you are
Not
Going to be there
Under my skin
Inside my head
Over
me.
So I’m going to run for the last time
Through planets and systems
Looking desperately for you
And knowing the futility of the effort beforehand
I’m going laugh and cry and scream as mad
all at
the same time
To me,
who is completely aware of its state of being
And lost
So sadly lost.
And finally
To you,
who is in nowhere to be found.
(I will stop looking for you).
C – 8/Oct/2012